The first mistaken impulse of an undisciplined heart

I’ve been thinking a lot about this quote from David Copperfield. J was my first experience of a relationship that could go somewhere and I still think about him a lot but I think that’s cause we were fire and I got burnt and how can you forget a scar? But I also know that I was inexperienced and that definitely played into what I felt. Perhaps things would have been different if I had more experience with relationship. Perhaps. We’ll never know.

What I do know is that I love O, and it’s been a long time coming. I love him, and he makes my heart so full of joy.