Eighty Five

Have been up for 19 hours now, on 3 hours sleep. I am very tired.

Today has been a full day of celebrating one of my best friends and my heart has been refilled with love and appreciation for these magnificent human beings that I get to call friends. I’m going to sleep well tonight 🙂

Forty One

I haven’t been sleeping very well – no problem getting to sleep but keep waking up early in the morning and not being able to get back to sleep. My flatmate recommended the sleep pack on Headspace for me to try. Just did my first session (and may have fallen asleep during it which you’re not really supposed to do…) so we’ll see how it goes!

Big fan of meditation.

One

You know those days which are an effort to just think about, those days where you just want to crawl into a ball and cry and have no human interaction? This is one of those days. It’s hard. “Being normal” takes a lot of effort and is exhausting. I want to sleep for 1,000 years.

But somehow, I’ve made it here, in this cafe, writing my first thought. I wish it was an uplifting one. I guess it’s more important that it’s an honest one. I feel like shit and in a lot of fucking pain but on these days I take it 10 seconds at a time and try to live like a normal person, hoping that one day I will feel like a normal person again.

Nevertheless she persisted.