Ahhh I have an essay to write and I really don’t want to do ittttt.
I have ideas for my climate change research essay but I wish they were more coherent.
The more I read this essay, the less sense it’s making to me.
Tonight I planned to read over my essay and touch it up before submitting it, as well as finishing David Copperfield. So far I have done none of those things.
But it’s okay – it’s more important to be spending time with friends who are going away for a while, than to be writing essays and studying for tests. Doesn’t make me feel less stressed about it though!
Nice wee confidence boost getting an A back on an essay from a class which I’m being examined on tomorrow. I still am not entirely convinced that I know anything, maybe I just write in a way that makes it sound like I do. I’m going to really miss doing this paper. It’s been incredibly enlightening and relevant and thought provoking. This is why I went back to university, to learn stuff like this that makes me want to learn more stuff and feel like I’m engaging with the world around me. That feeling of being connected to your environment, of being shaken awake by ideas, that is the good shit. I want my life to always have this good shit in it.
Should I start my Romantic Lit essay? Or… keep reading The Rosie Result?
It’s so satisfying reaching a word count on an essay. That’s the first draft done! Anything from here will be a revision and hopefully make it better?
I hate it when essays sneak up on you and you suddenly realise you haven’t done anything at all and the stress blanket starts descending…
Remembered in the middle of the night last night that I missed my thought of the day. So here we are! I like having a boyfriend who will take me to the airport early in the morning 🙂
Yesterday was a great day- I got my reading report back for Postcolonial Lit (the one which I wrote realism on). I got an A 😀 good grades always validate my raison d’être for uni. I breathe a sigh of relief each time I see an A on my papers. I feel justified that if I’ve paid lots of money to pursue something I’m interested in, at least it’s something that I’m good at. I guess it feels like a more worthy investment? But then maybe there are also merits and value in receiving poor feedback and poor grades.
The other great thing about this week is that I’ve made my first uni friend since I started back last year. She’s in my two classes and one of my tutorials. We kept bumping into each other and then both turned up to the Bad Feminists Club. We got chatting and are now planning on hanging out! It’s a weird thing being an adult and making friends. It’s not as simple as being at school or church where you’re lumped with a group of people who you spend days and days with, so friendships naturally form. When you’re an adult, you need to do more than just show up, it takes more effort. You talk to someone new and think ‘hey, you’re cool, I’m cool, let’s hang out’, but there are social intricacies to the way that’s communicated so as to not come across too strange or weird. Anyway, I’m just glad to have a uni friend finally! Yay.